Again and again
Start over from scratch
Build up from the ground
The new kid in class
I tell them my name
Again and again
I try to be kind
and hope for a friend
And hope for a friend
It's like a game of hide and seek, they count to ten and look for me
but it's been half an hour, I'm still crouched behind the couch and think
That maybe they've forgotten me, gave up, gone to watch T.V.
no calls for me, apologies,
or olly olly oxen frees
The childhood I had
An outsider in my head
Again and again
Again and again
We pack up and move
I skip like a stone
New school to new school
Unable to float
and holding my breath
Afraid to approach
Will you be my friend?
Will you be my friend?
It's like a game of hide and seek,
they count to ten and look for me
but it's been several hours
I'm still crouched behind the couch and think
That I'm the piece they'd rather lose,
the seed you plant that never blooms
A new kid much too nervous to stand up,
step out or leave his room
The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
Again and again
Class we have a new student
He's a little withdrawn
He just moved here from Texas or Nashville or Mars
He'll be gone before long
So he's not worth the trouble
He's a novelty when
all the cliques are connected
The ephemeral friend
It's like a game of hide and seek
They count to ten and look for me
but it's been twenty years and I'm
still crouched behind the couch and think
That I'd be different had I known
that birthday cakes and milestones
wouldn't mark my progress growing up
like years of eating lunch alone
The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
I ask myself: without it, would I be the Bug I am?
Again and Again
It's like a game of hide and seek
but it's my turn to search and, see,
I still know all the hiding spots
to check to find the lost and thank
The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
but never again
credits
from Bigger Than Myself,
released August 20, 2020
Lyrics - Bug
Vocals - Bug
Guitar - Bug
Ukulele - Bug
Piano - Bug
Drums - Kyle Hodgkinson
Bass Guitar - Jesse Gallaway
Good god this hits something awful. Absolutely haunting and tragic and personal, and then that little snippet of "Will ye go, lassie, go" at the end sneaks in to hurt you. robin
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Bright, gorgeous, bashing songs from these Belgian shoegazers that never lose track of melody amidst the waves of distortion. Bandcamp New & Notable Sep 23, 2023
I love this album because it seamlessly combines a spoken word narrative with music. I love how sonically diverse it is!
I also love the fact that, even though the album is about a very specific life experience, the album contains emotions that feel very universal. Overall, it's a great listen. elainachristine